A new me
Passed out this afternoon after drinking two, 2.5 Litre bottles of White Lightning. Woke to find I've shit myself yet again. I'm getting good at this, but I'm sick of my underpants sticking to my arse on a half inch layer of shit, So, I decided to get some new togs. Watched a woman hanging out her washing, and waited 15 minutes to make sure she was busy in the house, and over the fence I went. I took off my old gear and wiped the thick layer of shit off myself with a couple of shirts she hung out. I put aside a shirt and a few pairs of pants and sock for myself, and then wiped every other bit of washing over my shitty arse. I got changed, and then gathered up the shitty laundry, and knocked on her back door. when she came out I told her she did a fucking terrible job on the pile of clothes I was holding, and that she needed to do the cunts again, and pushed them into her arms before fucking off back over the fence to find new adventures.
Though I can't feel the shit so much, I can still smell it, so it will still help when I'm scrounging money or food.
I have to say, that apart from the shitty fingerprints on this shirt, I look like a new man!
shitted by Wobblingscruffbag @ 6:14 am
18 Comments:
I'll see ya down the woods later.
Don't foget we have that dogging session booked for 11:30.
I'm on the rag and me gash smells liek a trawlermans fingers after a 12 hour shift but I know you ain't fussy.
Hugs......
Anya
XX
Hey good stuff mate!
Now that the homeless woman's stopped writing in her blog you should find some other people to mock. How about black people? Or people in wheelchairs? What about people with learning difficulties. That would be a real laugh! No?
You pathetic waste of an education
Has she really stopped? Perhaps she's got a job as motoring correspondant for the Big Issue.
Can you put a paypal button on your site so we can buy some of your shit..... In a similiar way that we bought into similiar shit on a similiar blog.
Best Regards
Mr Bell End
I see the Con Artist formerly known as WS now has "An Agent".
Good for her.
I wonder how many other homeless people have agents?
*sigh* I wish I was homeless and destitute so that I could have an agent.
Some people have all the luck .....
Phew! Peace and silence in the blog for a change... Even though I did have to turn off comments completely to get it...
The last week has been insane. From the deep silence of the trees, to suddenly everything kicking off around me, including here in this blog —but not confined to it at all this week. My main priority has been rushing about trying to find somewhere to live, and that's what I've been doing — has been all up-down, disheartening and disorientating at times, racing around psyching myself up, then being turned down, already gone, or lack of job ending it before it gets started. I have enough for the deposit and month in advance and couple of weeks maybe, but even with that and the new determination I have to stand up and be counted in the world again, an end to homelessness is not sudden or easy. Not for anyone. Anyway there are possibilities, and I am working on them. But, in the midst of everything this week, and reeling from some people's reaction to the Paypal button, it suddenly occurred to me that most of this bitterness is probably because nobody actually knows how much I got from it. I read one comment (which made me smile) saying I had probably made my fortune and that you wouldn't see me for dust now. Well, no, obviously, I didn't. But since none of you know that, and because the Paypal donations were only meant to be for month in advance and months deposit to get a place, it seems only right that now that I have that I should take it down. So I did. Not because I was feeling guilty, as one comment suggested, and not because I knew the 'game' was up and I was running scared, as another one did — believe me, living in a car through a long, cold winter, as I did, is no 'game' I can tell you! And also Paypal 'donations' are simply that 'donations' so it does not interfere with benefits situation. But if there is any more publicity and therefore traffic on my blog people will be assuming that I am inviting it in the hope that people will donate. So incase that happens I have taken it off.
Anyway, the button being there, was playing more and more on my mind. Not only because of the comments I got in the last few days (to be honest despite all your emails asking if I was okay and bearing up after reading them, my mind has been on so many other things this week that I haven't had time to read them, not most of them anyway). Was reading them all before, but this week when they turned ugly I just decided it was best not to read them, not that I would have been that affected by them it is what you expect from the internet — I was always surprised from the beginning that I had not had more of that stuff. So no, it didn't really bother me, I was more concerned for all you reading them, as I said this week was too busy trying to get a life back together to worry too much about all that on top of it all — so I rarely read them (sorry to all the supportive posters, I have been reading emails though, and know the support that is out there for me, so thanks for that.)
Anyway, as I said things have been kicking off, and in the midst of it I took down the Paypal button. I might also make another announcement about that soon, because I may be getting a paid position, and if I do I have decided that the best thing to do is to refund the Paypal money. Not because I feel guilty about it —in the end I looked at lots of American blogs, which people had sent the url to me to convince me it was okay to do. They all had Paypal donate buttons on them too, and so I accepted in the end that people were just donating here if they liked the blog (almost a modern form of tipping or something) just like they do on other blogs. But I never felt entirely comfortable with it, only because of the nature of mine — the fact that I am living in my car and writing about my homelessness here. That made mine different, maybe more difficult to just click out of without feeling guilty in some way. That was never my intention. But I can see the dilemma. I would have felt it too. I always said I wanted to drive out of this laneway with my dignity still intact, and I still can, but I need my integrity to be intact too, and with all this bitterness about the Paypal, and the issue of whether it was a guilt trip, and people's speculation about how much I made from it, has left such a bad taste in my mouth about it all, that I would just prefer not to have the donations at all. Hopefully, I have got a lot of life ahead of me to live, and I don't want to have to continually defend my decision in putting that Paypal button up. It takes up too much energy. So I think that is the only way to end all this nonsense and endless talk about paypal. And that is what I will do. I promised, in thank you emails that the first chance I had I would pass on that kindness to someone else that needs it. Instead, now, I will just refund it and let you pass it on. I was in dire straits, and when I absolutely had no way out of here people, total strangers, donated to help me get out, and I will always be awed by that. But maybe I was wrong, maybe there are other ways out now. Even if the money goes back, I will still be left with the kindness that was shown here. I will never forget that kindness, it has changed me.
As you can see, I switched the comments off as well. Finally. Because it got too ridiculous in the end. I tried to leave it up as long as possible so that anyone could have their say here, but had no choice in the end. Good or bad it didn't matter, but ugly did. And in the end some of the comments got really ugly. I didn't have time to read all of them in the last few days but occassionally, when I checked-in I'd scan almost without looking, until I saw swearing and deleted those where I found them, just without looking, clicking the delete button (apologies for the few I deleted by mistake — that was the reason) — not for me really, like I said I expected those from the beginning, so wasn't surprised by them or the abuse or threats in them, but I thought it wrong that everyone else should have to read them. Even though all the positives still outweighed the negatives — as always...
Actually I have, just this minute, decided to put moderated comments back on, because I think the reaction of the majority here shouldn't be silenced by the few. So there, it's back.
The other piece of news in all that insanity that was the blog this week, was that while it was all kicking off here on the sidelines, I had hardly a chance to look at it, because as well as looking for a place and trying to get out of here, I was being approached by people and getting all sorts of response to my situation and the blog, and in the midst of it all it looks like I got myself an agent, and put something together and because of the timimg of things and my situation things and meetings and talks and what have you are being rushed through and it looks like there might be possibilites. It's all been crazy. But I wasn't able to mention it here — probably still not meant to. Can't take it all in yet, more as and when it unfolds, but for now, who knows, there may be an eleventh-hour way out of this laneway afterall.
It feels like I have been alone down here at the bottom of this deep, dark hole, for a long, long time, and that now someone is shining a light down and has found me. I'm not out yet, but there is a flicker of light from above, and I sense movement.
posted by W
Carry on commenting on my blog, fucknuts. I can delete anything you throw at it with one click.
Thanks for the invite. Most kind of you :o)
oh you poor thing. Go on...put up a paypal button!
i also have reported ws to the dss.
i was in doubt about the story so e-mailed the bbc news online service, they refuse to confirm that ws is genuine, i too will report her the dss
You are all so wonderfull xxx
any time hun
hugs
you cunt
Hi Mr ScruffBag. Hope you are well and had an adventurous weekend. Anything to report? Look forward to hearing of your latest exploits.
Lots of love XX
God Bless you Wobblingscruffbag,
Your tale of hope in your darkest hours serve as an inspiration to us all.
Should you ever put a paypal button on your site then you can rest assured that I will never give you a single penny.
By supporting you in this way, your resolve to get out of the rut will grow stronger and you will be a better person for it.
I do the same for all homeless people.
It's my way of giving back to a society that has provided me a big house, flash car and loads of money.
Peace and hugs.....
FlashBastard
Due to the constant cajoling, I now reluctantly intend to put a paypal link up for donations to my cider fund. I love you all!
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